Birth Day Show

WARNING: Do not watch the Discovery Health TV Show Birth Day if you are pregnant!

I can't handle it. Every (and I do mean every) time I watch it I end up in tears. It scares me to death. One minute I'm happy and the next I'm sad, scared, freaked out and in tears. I'm sure everyone needs a good laugh today so I volunteer myself as the entertainment. Last week as I lay on the couch in my usual lazy position, I flipped through the channels and decided to leave it on a Birth Day story. I thought to myself, maybe I should see again exactly what is going to happen. Wrong idea. I've watched these types of shows a hundred times pre-pregnancy and was fine. Not today. Of course, there is always drama on there or it wouldn't sucker us in. Today was no different. Before I knew it, it got me. The woman was in labor pushing for hours and then ended up having a c-section. Let's back it up alittle...... they had me freaked out at putting the IV in!! I should have changed it then but no! I continued to watch the whole epidural part. I think I started crying hysterically when they put that scary brown stuff on the woman's back. After that it was all just a blur. The operating table, the Jesus position, the cutting... too much. The other woman they featured gave birth naturally. You might be thinking that was easier for me to watch- ummm.. NO! Both scare the daylights out of me!

So here's the funny part. The show ends and I can hardly catch my breath because I'm crying so hard. What do I do? I call RJ at work around 3p.m. He answered (normally he doesn't) and I couldn't get a word out. He kept saying hello?? Ashley?? Is something wrong?? I told him yes! YES, something was wrong!!! Majorly WRONG!! I told him I couldn't have this baby. I was scared of needles, knifes, hospitals, stitches, my legs in those sturip things, the whole enchilada!! I was crying so hard at this point that I had scared Addison and she ran to hide under our bed! RJ was really sweet and asked what triggered all of this. I told him about the show and EVERYTHING I saw and kept repeating that I couldn't have the baby! I just couldn't! I wasn't strong enough to have a baby! He said that there was no way out now and everything would be okay. I told him it was easy for him to say-- he didn't have to do anything but hold my hand and that men have it soooo easy! After letting me cry for about 10 minutes on the phone and trying to comfort me, I finally let him go. I bet he was thinking why in the world did he answer that call from me!!?!?! or that his wife had really gone crazy this time!!!!

p.s. If you think a week later I'm any less scared.. YOU'RE WRONG!

Growing and Growing....

This week I have hit the 22 week marker. The baby girl (who still doesn't have a name--poor thing!) is a foot long and weighs a pound already!! I can't believe it! She has been kicking like crazy also. I still haven't gotten to really get up and get things done like I want to because I've been under the weather. I think 2 weeks of fast and furious remodeling followed by one long week of too much sun and dehydration did me in (oh yes, I had a heat stroke in Florida on our vacation along with high fever and an infection--only me!). I'm doing better now but I feel like I have dropped off the face of the Earth. I went for my checkup the other day and my blood pressure is low and keeps dropping. What does this mean?? The doctor said it's better than high blood pressure and he's watching it. He said it explains why I haven't had much energy and to eat more red meat. Bottom line, I think I might be the weakest person alive. I hope I can actually have this baby! I'm trying to shield my friends from all the complaining.. lol! Sorry Mom and RJ, it's all you!!!

Finally Remodeled!!

Wow, it's been so long since I blogged! Live has been crazy with the "we must remodel the whole house in only 2 weeks" phase I was going through. The house looks great. I can't tell you how happy I feel being in a clean house with floors! I have decided I love floors! Carpet, tile-- I don't care!! I just love not walking around on cement and trying to jump over tack strips. It's so nice not to have to put your shoes on when you step out of bed. I'm just so happy!

Here are a few pictures of the remodeling. It only took 4 months after the flood for us to finally remodel! We put new carpet, new tile and new baseboards throughout the house. We also put new cabinets in the kitchen, both bathrooms and laundry room not to mention a few more changes like moving the oven to a new spot in the kitchen, building in the refridgerator and totally getting a new master shower. We still aren't completely finished. I just ordered knobs for all the cabinets and R.J. still needs to calk. Also, I have painted the babies room (3 times-- totally a story in itself!!).

We still need to put the kitchen knobs on- I just ordered them!

The oven used to be in the spot of the long cabinets to the left. We moved the oven to under the stove and built this pantry. I love it!!!

Our new carpet and tile up close and personal :)

Like I said, still needs knobs.

Master shower-- TOTAL redo. Down to the wood framing!

IT'S A GIRL!!!!

I'm still really busy remodeling the house but I wanted to share our good news! We just found out on Friday that we are having a little GIRL!!! We are super excited!!!!

Blog Holiday!

Sorry guys... I'm taking a week off of blogging to remodel the house (it's a must as you know!!). I'll keep you updated on all the progress soon! :)

Your laugh for the day!

My mom calls this morning and tells me that my picture is in our local paper for the Thursday Edition (humiliating!). Our Coleman Chronicle and Democratic Voice only runs Tuesday and Thursday and is 50 cents much like any small town paper. I immediately asked if she was joking and who put it in there and what am I wearing. I just knew I was going to embarrass myself and I was right. I later found out no one put my picture in there, every week they randomly put an old picture in the paper from an event back in the day and have people guess who it is. Lucky me, right? So, here's your laugh for the day! My mom and I think this picture was taken while I was in junior high (we think 8th grade) and I got 1st runner up in our local Christmas Pageant (no I never won any of the pageants I was in unlike my sister who only entered once and won it). I think there was only about 6 people in the Christmas Pageant that year... LOL. Don't you just love the puffy sleeves on my dress? :)

Catching my ZZZZZZ's!

Finally, I am wearing makeup again and have retired "my workout uniform" as R.J. would call it (my uniform was a tank top and hot pink nike windshorts in case you were wondering). No, I was not working out it was just comfortable and actually fit. I am feeling better these days and make myself get up and do something everyday. My problem is I don't get very far. I'm good for a couple of hours in the morning and then the baby sends me home to take it's daily 3 hour nap. Yes, I said I take a 3 hour nap everyday (how lazy am I!!!!) I usually go eat lunch and get to run a couple of errands and then around 2p.m. I'm pooped! My head starts hurting and I'm out for the count. While you might be thinking a daily 3 hour nap would be nice-- it's not. I can't seem to get anything done. Plus, I have NEVER liked naps. I hate how they make me feel after I wake up but these days I don't really get a say in what I do. Let me back up and say that I'm still sleeping my full 12 hours at night! What the heck! Someone help me please. Now, I guess I don't take 3 hour naps everyday but I do take a nap daily whether it be an hour or four hours. The only problem I have found is sleeping positions. R.J. and I read our Pregnancy book every week and last week it said that I couldn't sleep on my back anymore because the babies weight puts pressure on my spine and major blood vessels. I can't sleep on my tummy anymore either for obvious reasons and I am a total tummy sleeper (this really sucks)! So, I'm down to only sleeping on my sides and the book said the left side is best for me to sleep on. Well, I really think this a crock of crap because woman 50 years ago didn't know any of this and they had healthy babies. I told R.J. I feel like they are nickel and diming me to death with this pregnancy! Okay, back to my story I was going to tell. Let me reminder you that R.J. is an engineer and follows the book on everything (rather annoying sometimes). One night not long after this, I was sleeping soundly around 3a.m. on my back (only position comfortable these days) when R.J. hit me and woke me up!!! He started yelling at me and told me I was sleeping on my back and to switch to my left side!!! Can you believe this?!?! First of all, I do not like to be woken up from my sleep and second of all he has taken this WAY TO FAR. I'm not sure what I yelled back but I can guarantee he won't be waking me up again from my sleep to tell me to switch to my side! I know he was just trying, but note to self-- don't wake up a sleeping pregnant giant :)