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Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Bitter Sweet
Well as everyone in my blog world knows, I had a double staph infection (Mastitis) last week. It was by far the most pain I have ever felt-- more than my Ceasarean and recovery days after. I don't know how I got it but I got it about 2 weeks ago. I went to the doctor that day and got medicine. The problem was it really hurt my stomach and after about 3 days I felt better so I stopped taking it. Bad Mistake. Huge. It came back more angry than before. Anyway, after 5 1/2 days of hell, I'm better. Needless to say, the doctor stopped me cold turkey from breastfeeding. I was already trying to wing myself off so now I am completely done. It's bitter sweet. On one hand I'M FREE! OMG! Breastfeeding doesn't consume my life anymore. On the other hand is guilt. Horrible guilt that I have let Campbell down. Dr. Irwin assures me that by four months Campbell has gotten 90% of all my antibodies already. Why does being a mom have to be so hard? Anyway, good bye old friend!
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its okay my friend...i only did it for 4 months too! The way I felt better was by making Hunters organic babyfood with a Babycook from Williams Sonoma! It was fun, super easy, and he loved it. He eats all veggies, fruits, and even things like Salmon to this day. I think its bc the babyfood was so rich in real flavor vs watered down jars.
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